D & A

Im tired of awake at 3-4 am everyday just to think and cry.

Im tired of this feeling of not moving on with someone who talk behind me with others.

I want to move on! 

Ya Allah, just give me strength to move on and please remove this from my mind.

I just ruined everything. Yes everything. 

People losing trust and im still here with that people.

Im not leaving until you decide to leave. 

I know you didn't trust me anymore. 

I can see it.

I just want you to be me for 1 day and feel how it's feel to be me.

I just want to be loved. That's all.

Tired of having self-harm thought.

Tired of trying to self-harm.

Being kind and still feel useless.

Feel fatigue, not wanting to do anything. 

Just want to lay in bed all day.

Im drowning.

 

Separuh rasa

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Pantai Tengah, Langkawi [20 Mei 2023]